Hmm, okay, it has been months since i last update my blog. Sorry about that. Now exam has over! That means i got plenty of time to blog. :D The MEEEEEE now is no longer the emo one kay. No more crying for 'him'. Although i still miss him, but well, just miss, no longer want him back. I just wish that he can be happy forever. That's all i want from him. Now, I'm happy with my friends. Single so what? After making use to it, it isn't that bad ya. (: I guess the next thing that might upset me will be the result and also the streaming. i don't want to separate with my friends in 2E1. Of course, i don't wish to be in the same class with some of them. Just some. Hmm, not hate but dislike. And, ya i think i will be damn tired because of trainings. :x The trainings are gonna be tough ya. Die. OMG, can't imagine.

Hello people.. I think i really dam long never update my blog le. Anyways, it is like nobody is coming to my blog or maybe just that i don't know. So, i will still post but not as much. It the first post for July, and ya, it will be still about him. He is eventually all that is deciding my everyday mood.. I think i do not need to say more about it, my Facebook is flooded with status about him. Thanks for all those who tried to cheer me up, but im sorry that i eventually did not. I'm much better than last month already, don't have to worry too much ya. :D I'm...alright. I only wish he can be happy.. Haha, silly ya? Bobian.

Holding on to the past while living in the present.

Hi hi hi. I know i very long never update already, i did not use comp that often so forgive me ya! :D Well, time really flies, coach has left and a new coach will be coming when school reopen. Just hope the new coach won't be too harsh on us. :/ Okayy, this few days as my mum came to s'pore, i shop a lot. Lol. Bought a lot too. Ahahaha (Y)! But those will be my birthday present already. Nevermind~ Hahaha. At least it stops me from using the money for my birthday present on someone.. Someone whom i always think about. Alright, really nothing to update about already! Life is just too boring without you. Lol. So i edit some photo. XD

Back to square one.

hi hi hi. I'm back here. hahaha. Didn't use comp for like one week? X) Playing my new phone uhh, can use wifi. Here i'm to update(: Well, it will be a sad sad sad post again. Because~ I saw him today! After a long time since i last see him in school before holidayyy. He came back for training today, as a graduating senior. He did not change much, the way he talks, the way he walks, the way he plays basketball. Only one thing that changes, the attitude towards me. Wait, hmmmmm, i wonder why am i posting about him again when i said i'm going to move on for the previous posts? Haizzz. Sorry, i just can't...control. Okayy, sorry, i wanna continue... :l For now, i'm scared to see him, because it hurts more after long since i last see him. When i didn't see him for long, i'm doing alright... But everything changes when i see him, like today. When i walked pass him today, i'm shivering and idk why.. Today after training i went to tm, t1 and century square with michelle, lisa and ruiqi to buy materials and gift for coach's farewell party. When i was at t1's sports link, at the corner of basketball shoes, the scence you hug me suddenly replayed in my mind, automatically. It's like i can see the shadow of 'us'... I miss you, zy.s♥ 140411, i think i'm walking backwards on the road...

Once you love me so much, how you want me to accept the fact that you don't love me anymore?

You again.

I can tolerate anyone to call me bitch, except you. But seem like you don't know how much pain it cause when you call me bitch. So please, you don't know anything don't call me bitch. If you called me bitch because of what i did, fine, go ahead. Just don't scold me bitch for liking someone else. You don't understand how i feel. And poor thing, you have not forget me yet, not totally(: When you did, you will have no feeling for me, not at all, not even hatred. That is then called 'let go'. Byee.

FUN.

Today is saturday! Went to play basketball again, but played at bedok north blk 77 instead of 116. A lot of joke today !! Jin Long's unexpected shot, silence some more ! *Is he even intend to shoot? Hahaha, NO.* And Jeremin's 'ah gua' act, water only ! LOL. Joking joking. XD Today is just too...FUNNY ! Too many funny things happened today :l And then ! Our 3 main players- Jeremin, Jun Hui and Jin Long, played a 3-on-3 match with the people there ! Is was a nice match ! *CLAP* But our court was snatched by the people ! D: So we have to change place, went to 116 the 'lao di fang'. Played 4-on-4 all the way, and rest plus some gossip or disiao, i was the first target, wth?! Nvm nvm, they are always like that, BUT, can you please just shut up when someone else are there, GOH JIN LONG? You seriously dam 'chian bian' sia. But actually, i dam paiseh and embarrased that i did those idiot and bitchy things last year.. :x JUST DON'T MENTION ABOUT IT LAH, DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER. Then i went home, at 9, like OHMYGOD. And when i was on 197, i saw a stupid fellow, act cool but not cool, lol. Okayy, nothing else for today le, byeee !

When i was on the bus alone today, i wondered why didn't i think of you like i always do. Not that i've forgotten the fact that you've left, i remember how i felt when and after you decided to leave, and everything i have done to get you back. But i just don't feel sad anymore, not that painful, just a little bit of regret, regret of pushing you away, regret of missing a nice guy. But well, i guess i've already taken my first step, to move on. I dare not say i have moved on, but i'm moving on. And for those who think i'll target someone, get it right, i won't.