Well, today is the day i am going back to Singapore, i am here to inform my readers that i will not be posting or online facebook and msn anymore until my sis is back too, i am not bringing the laptop back with me this time. I will be forcusing on basketball. Basketball girls, all the way! ♥

think of you last night before sleeping, dream of you this morning before waking up from the last sleep in Taiwan of 2010, cried for you when i was awake... everything was about you at the last day of 2010 in Taiwan but everything in your mind was that girl... well, you asked me to be more mature when you see me next year. I have already put our photo in my wallet, always remind me of your words...

Today is a tiring day, went out to somewhere we are not familiar with. Couldn't find the way, spent 30mins or 1h more then reach the destination... Anyway, i get another new shoe again, haha. Nike this time, from a Nike outlet ♥ I already bought 3 shoes from Taiwan, omg, don't know if i was able to bring back to S'pore! Not only shoe, still got shirts and 2 bags... This coming Sunday, i will be back to S'pore! It's weird that when i was in S'pore, i miss the friends here and when i was in Taiwan, i miss the friends there. I miss him no matter where am i... But i am regret that i met up with him, maybe not for a little, at least talked to him like a normal friends after 3 years, long 3 years... Haizzz, should i meet him again next year? Hope i will be totally get over him next year, totally... Orh! Today bgss boys and girls played the first match for Geylang Serai, don't how was the girls' match, boys owned Piooner(?) Sec by 25 points, good job! Strive your best for the rest of the matches, for both boys and girls!♥ Okay, my post for today ends here, bye!

I want to know what is love, what is love? It's stupid to ask this question i know, but it seem like i don't know what is love actually, and i stead with people without even knowing what is love, true love. I always thought i love someone, but what i see now, the fact is that i don't even know what is love and the person i really loved before. Now everything seems unclear, i was lost. When you heard someone said, 'i like someone', and you cried, what does it means? When you think that you like him but when he rejects you, it doesn't hurt, what does it means then? Why the mind and the heart isn't the same? Why he still can hurt me after so long? I thought i have gave up on him when we are so far away. I thought i will be fine, no, i thought i am fine, just not to see him for months or a year. But what i feeling now, is not like what i thought, not at all. What is my heart thinking? Can't it connect to the mind? Can't it let me know at that moment? Why must it hide that for so long until now when i can't regret anything, anything that i did wrong in the past, anything that wasn't what my heart thinking, wanting to do. Who do i really love, for now? He or he, who? How to tell? Why am i crying for both of him? Or to me, he is just the important one, not the love one anymore? What is the fact? What is the fact...? I wish i can never ever need to think about him or him, both of them cause me pain. I wish i could forget them forever, forever, until i die... Can i just disappear from the world, or leave here and there to another place where no one knows me... what do i really want? Can i have my life without any love things? It's complicated... Love, got many kinds of love, mother's love, sibling's love, friend's love and bgf love... Which love am i having for XXX? Which love am i having for XX? Or i don't love either of them?

Don't think i am going to blog again, no one wants me to blog too. Blog to waste my time only, haizzz. I hate myself, no best friend, no one understand me, only someone who is so far away... People i care more, are not treating me as their important one, i am just a normal friend to them. I really strat to hate this world... so lonely...