I want to know what is love, what is love? It's stupid to ask this question i know, but it seem like i don't know what is love actually, and i stead with people without even knowing what is love, true love. I always thought i love someone, but what i see now, the fact is that i don't even know what is love and the person i really loved before. Now everything seems unclear, i was lost. When you heard someone said, 'i like someone', and you cried, what does it means? When you think that you like him but when he rejects you, it doesn't hurt, what does it means then? Why the mind and the heart isn't the same? Why he still can hurt me after so long? I thought i have gave up on him when we are so far away. I thought i will be fine, no, i thought i am fine, just not to see him for months or a year. But what i feeling now, is not like what i thought, not at all. What is my heart thinking? Can't it connect to the mind? Can't it let me know at that moment? Why must it hide that for so long until now when i can't regret anything, anything that i did wrong in the past, anything that wasn't what my heart thinking, wanting to do. Who do i really love, for now? He or he, who? How to tell? Why am i crying for both of him? Or to me, he is just the important one, not the love one anymore? What is the fact? What is the fact...? I wish i can never ever need to think about him or him, both of them cause me pain. I wish i could forget them forever, forever, until i die... Can i just disappear from the world, or leave here and there to another place where no one knows me... what do i really want? Can i have my life without any love things? It's complicated... Love, got many kinds of love, mother's love, sibling's love, friend's love and bgf love... Which love am i having for XXX? Which love am i having for XX? Or i don't love either of them?