Well, today is the day i am going back to Singapore, i am here to inform my readers that i will not be posting or online facebook and msn anymore until my sis is back too, i am not bringing the laptop back with me this time. I will be forcusing on basketball. Basketball girls, all the way! ♥

think of you last night before sleeping, dream of you this morning before waking up from the last sleep in Taiwan of 2010, cried for you when i was awake... everything was about you at the last day of 2010 in Taiwan but everything in your mind was that girl... well, you asked me to be more mature when you see me next year. I have already put our photo in my wallet, always remind me of your words...

Today is a tiring day, went out to somewhere we are not familiar with. Couldn't find the way, spent 30mins or 1h more then reach the destination... Anyway, i get another new shoe again, haha. Nike this time, from a Nike outlet ♥ I already bought 3 shoes from Taiwan, omg, don't know if i was able to bring back to S'pore! Not only shoe, still got shirts and 2 bags... This coming Sunday, i will be back to S'pore! It's weird that when i was in S'pore, i miss the friends here and when i was in Taiwan, i miss the friends there. I miss him no matter where am i... But i am regret that i met up with him, maybe not for a little, at least talked to him like a normal friends after 3 years, long 3 years... Haizzz, should i meet him again next year? Hope i will be totally get over him next year, totally... Orh! Today bgss boys and girls played the first match for Geylang Serai, don't how was the girls' match, boys owned Piooner(?) Sec by 25 points, good job! Strive your best for the rest of the matches, for both boys and girls!♥ Okay, my post for today ends here, bye!

I want to know what is love, what is love? It's stupid to ask this question i know, but it seem like i don't know what is love actually, and i stead with people without even knowing what is love, true love. I always thought i love someone, but what i see now, the fact is that i don't even know what is love and the person i really loved before. Now everything seems unclear, i was lost. When you heard someone said, 'i like someone', and you cried, what does it means? When you think that you like him but when he rejects you, it doesn't hurt, what does it means then? Why the mind and the heart isn't the same? Why he still can hurt me after so long? I thought i have gave up on him when we are so far away. I thought i will be fine, no, i thought i am fine, just not to see him for months or a year. But what i feeling now, is not like what i thought, not at all. What is my heart thinking? Can't it connect to the mind? Can't it let me know at that moment? Why must it hide that for so long until now when i can't regret anything, anything that i did wrong in the past, anything that wasn't what my heart thinking, wanting to do. Who do i really love, for now? He or he, who? How to tell? Why am i crying for both of him? Or to me, he is just the important one, not the love one anymore? What is the fact? What is the fact...? I wish i can never ever need to think about him or him, both of them cause me pain. I wish i could forget them forever, forever, until i die... Can i just disappear from the world, or leave here and there to another place where no one knows me... what do i really want? Can i have my life without any love things? It's complicated... Love, got many kinds of love, mother's love, sibling's love, friend's love and bgf love... Which love am i having for XXX? Which love am i having for XX? Or i don't love either of them?

Don't think i am going to blog again, no one wants me to blog too. Blog to waste my time only, haizzz. I hate myself, no best friend, no one understand me, only someone who is so far away... People i care more, are not treating me as their important one, i am just a normal friend to them. I really strat to hate this world... so lonely...

post for yesterday

Went back to my primary school in Taiwan yesterday, feel so strange to be there 3 years later. Something was changed. I miss my class, my classmates but they were not there. When i went there, it was almost empty because no one there is someone i am familiar with. I suppose all of them don't miss our primary school, even friends during primary school... They got lots of new friends, closer friends now, except me, i am the odd one out who still miss the past in the primary school. I think of him when i go to some places where i spent with him... Well, i really miss him, a lot. Tomorrow is gonna to meet him, excited and scared...

school front gate

corridor to the hall

my class room is there! can't go up :(

I miss here, always report to here in the morning,

i always fell down when i was going to late! xD

I miss here the most,

the place with the memory of us when we were together.

Sweet.

Art classroom!

post for today

Meet up with him at 12 o'clock today, at the basketball court near our house... We got nothing to talk when we first see each other, so awkward... He said i still never change, same as when i was in primary school. I said ya, still so ugly. He said no, not about the look. He said, still so silly. >.< He asked me how many boyfriend i had after i go to singapore... i never answer... then i asked him the same question, he said two... But he said he don't like them a lot, never talk more about it... Then talk talk talk, so peace. I asked him to go home first, he don't reply me. Until my mom come and brought KFC for us, the burger was spicy! And he laughed at me, lols. He asked my mom why she sent me to singapore. I don't know why he ask this, so weird. Then my mom went off and left us alone again. But we have more topic to talk then. Getting closer and closer, but still different as 'that' time. I miss the past with him, just miss. He said he did think of our past too. I really miss 'them'! But it is just the past... I miss him, so much, even now. When i was leaving, he said he wants to see me grow more mature next year when he sees me. :) I still miss him now, after we said bye to each other, i never stop thinking of him... Haizzz.  

Oh my god. Why people thought my personal message and facebook status were written for ayf? Those weren't for him, weren't talking about him, not at all. Please, don't misunderstand, please... Don't talk about him with me too. Don't ask me what happened, i will get frustrated while i explain. So please, let me go, stop asking me the reason, stop asking me to think again, stop it. And i won't be friend with you, not because i am cruel. But it will be awkward for me, maybe not for you, if we continue to talk as friend, play as friend, go out as friend. It is better to be stranger. Okay, don't want to talk about it already! I have a letter to someone (:

Letter to _ _ _ _ _ _ _,

I have dissapointed you for the last few times and i have also lost your trust. I will walk my promise, not to break it, for this time. I know you don't trust me i will but i wish you can give me time to prove it to you. My facebook status, i mean it. Thanks you (: 

Bitch. Idiotic. Wasn't it your fault? Why must you find excuse to pull yourself out of that mistake and push it onto me? Even mummy said it was your fault but you still trying to find excuse. You are going too far. You are the one who started shouting. You said, i never ask you before i tell mummy we are ready but you already took your t-shirt and change cloth and you had finished your breakfast. You were ready but you are watching movie and you don't want to get out of that seat, weren't you? You don't dare to admit your wrong so you can only keep making up excuse to save your pride. Can't you learn to be mature? You are already going 17, young teenager. I believe there is no one who will trust you if you tell them you are 17. If today was daddy calling you, i swear you will not do this because you don't dare. By the way, do you know that people will fly into the rage when people calling you and you have no response? You bitch, don't dare to admit what you did. I said you never response when i called you and even sometimes when daddy calling you but you said i did the same and even more times than you. You really don't want your face already is it? Well, you can ask daddy whether your saying or my saying is correct, it will help you to throw away your face! I dare you!

Was not at Taipei for 2 days, went back to Yun Lin to visit my grandparents. Saw my little counsins, so cuteee. Hahas. I miss them!!! <3 And ate a lot of delicious food! 豆花,臭豆腐,炒麵 and my grandpa's birthday chocolate cake! Awesomeee! And i bought 1 tee and 1 shoe! The shoe is hot pink!!! Woos. xD So happy. I wear it today! Here is the photo with my 2 little cuteee cousins and another pic!

Letter to _ _ _ _ _ _ _,

Stop all your dreaming, stop being naive and silly. Dreams won't come true. Stop being irritating, he will hate you if you continue. You don't wish to see him hating you, do you? I am shock to know that you love him, now. But anyway, things will not come back will not come back. Stop thinking about it, stop making your wish. You deserve it, you know. You fall in love with someone you shouldn't love. You hurt him once so you must be hurt by him in return. Don't cry, be strong.

天真 愚蠢

 i will not to move on this time, not yet. i know you won't trust me now... but i will show you. i will still stop here even though there isn't any hope... i am here.

Ask you a question xD
Listen carefully, Aunt Any died last night, did she die?
Anut Any died last night, did she die?　
Aunt Any died last night, did she die?

this is freaking funny and stupid. -.-
got more! xD
my crazy monkey family know that. Hah.

You will have the thought to kill me if you know the answer, i guess. xD

back from hong kong! It's fun but tiring. I love it anyway. It brought all of us closer. From this trip, i realise i isn't good at basketball actually. I isn't strong enough, smart enought, calm enough. I did cry when i get scolded, but i hide it. Well, i wouldn't give up. I will try to be better furing this holiday break... This trip is expensive for experience not money. Besides, this trip also let each of us have a chance to know each other better, it's either good or bad. Anyway, this trip is over, but memories will always be there. (: Here is some photoes we took in hk!

Last week of my sec one's life, so bored. Don't know go to school for what. Only maths period was doing correction, the rest of the day was all watching DVD. Anyway, i have already got back my SA2 results... English 56.3%, Higher CL 68%, Maths 80%, Science 59%, Geography 73% and Literature 71.9%... Afraid that my overall of English may not pass... Oh my gosh. Anyway, get quite good for literature :D Whole class only 7 peoples get A2! Hah. Amazing. Well, someone did not very good for his maths -.- didn't pass! Hope his overall will pass and let him promote to sec 3 next year. Hope you will improve in your behavior next year and keep it up, believe that you are glad over teacher's compliments. (: Anyway, 2010 is going to the end and as well as my sec 1's relax year xD Have to work harder next year, lesser slacking! Hah, times really files... Feel like i have jsut finish my PSLE but one year is going to the end soon. I have made different kind of friends in bgss, well, yet to find a friend who can consider as best friend. I miss the time in Hong Wen with shan and yun :( Anyway, have to thank those people who offer me their helps this year :D


     

To kaiqin♥:
qin, thank you for being there for me when i feel down, over relationship... Thanks for your advise and support. And thanks for your plutto! I love it a lot! :D It's gorgeous to meet you and have you as my friend, close friend! ♥

To Michelle, Qi Wei, Rui Qi, Lisa, Wei Lin, Yan Ning (my best seniors ♥):
Thanks for all of your cheering when i am upset, your jokes which really makes me laugh like hell. You will sure be my best seniors! Hope we will get a good result in next year B division, like this year's C division! :D jiayou!

To Kelvin:
well, you mst be shock if you read this, or people must be shock if they saw his name here. Thought he and me are like enemy now, but i still want to thanks him for whatever he has done for me before we somehow quarrelled. You are really like my kor who takes care of me, help me when you are able to. We have once been so closed that you teches me to tie shoe lace in that way. I miss your worries and of course our friendship. Till now, i have not yet to rename your name in my contact list... Your name has always be Kelwin(: and it's under special. I know you are unpleasant with yifa but really, if you know him better you will change your opinion after all... But i think that's qutie impossible for you to do so as no matter what i say, you are ignoring me. But i will never change your name in my contact list, never change your grounp from 'special' to another.

To Weng Hoong:
Hello ah hoong (: Haha. Know you for almost one year! Now it's going to the end of this year, seriously hope we can still be in the same class next year. Then that will be awesome. :D Thought you like to bully me, call me 'fei shu', but i don't mind because it's kind of 'close'. xD You are always the closest one to me in class, hah. Friends forever!

To Javier, Iannzhen, Aylwin:
Hey! We have being slacking together often, however there is also some arguements in between. But well, now is getting better as this year is going to the end (: The times we spent together for jokes, fooling around, talking crab, will never be forget! :D

To the last person i wanted to thanks to, obviously, aw yi fa♥: 

Although i only know you for about two months, there are a lot, a lot of things to thank to you, everything you have done for me. You are really an awesome boyfriend except that you will late sometimes, don't know how to play basketball, a bit childish. Thank you for your toleration for my unreasonable, as well as your forgiveness of me loving someone else at the start of our relationship. It really amazed me when you told me you will just wait instead of break up. And I am sorry to hurt you, more than two times. Indeed, when i saw you sobbing with tears this morning, is cause me pains... I was stunned when i got that feeling, it is making me sure that i care about you. ily♥

Exam is finally over, but beginning to be busy. xD Yesterday schhol released us at 12.30, belated birthday celebration for Javier was held then. Cream bash instead of water, and taupok, hah. That's fun. After that i went to T1 for lunch, with baby and wan ting. Then rush back to school for Hong Kong trip briefing, until 3 plus. It was such a busy day i swear... After the briefing, i headed home and take a quick shower, and rush to Bugis to meet shan, cleon, colan and charles. Bought colan's birthday present and cake, celebrate his 13th birthday. When i was leaving Bugis, it was already going to 7pm. Well, i still have to attend a BBQ at ECP later on. It actually starts at 6pm and i reached there by 8. Lols. The way i go home is so...tiring. Walk here walk there to find an exist. I hate to go ECP sriously, so troublesm. =-= Heng baby with me xD ily

End of Year exam is coming, jiayou everyone. :D This isn't a normal end of year exam, not only that it affect whether i will promote to sec 2 next year, it also affect teacher's views on my relationship with him. It's important.. I want to have a good result... jiayou chiaying! jiayou baby! <3 jiayou everyone of you!  

籃球隊是一個團隊, 相處的過程當中我們已起經歷過的不只是打贏比賽的喜和樂, 還有輸了比賽的悲和傷, 我們不是普通的朋友, 我們是有難同當, 有福同享的隊友.

bgss' basketball girls team, is special. forever ♥

Friends need quarrels to improve the relationships. While going through the quarrels, we understand each other better. We don't born to be understand each other that well like we can read her or his heart, we need time. Same goes to love relationship. There are not only sweet and happiness but also bitter and sadness involved. A pair shouldn't be tear apart just because of the first mistake the another part does. People may change, everyone may change. But there will always be a reason. If a relationship breaks because of a change of the partner, then i think there will be many people getting divorce in this world? They will try to like the change over of him or her, try to accept the new one? May not only have one path to choose?

yesterday went to pei wan ting celebrate Deion's birthday and have Hong lao shi's farewell. so awkward when i first met all of them... >< at last then slightly got talk to yi fa, Deion, Jasmond and Jacky. Lols. damn paiseh luh! But it's fun. (: then today went out again, he pei me (: hehehe. no much to say. :P don't know what to post. Lols. Oh! monday! sports fiesta! (: Go, 1E1! Okay, i think stop here. Lols. Nights everyone. baby i miss you alot now :( i ♥ you!

post for yesterday:

today went to hmt and get back my class test paper, it was badly done. I thought i will get quite high but well, i did really bad. nearly cried but didn't. feel really upset for it. my moon was totally ruin by the mark. [33/50], i wondered what the hell is this. after that went back to school for basketball training, played until quite scary. Sorry for that... Anyway, after training ended, sit beside boys' basketball court with Eunice and watched the seniors played match. One word to describe, standard. Eunice! (: uhehehe. our secret! ♥

post for today:

today was bored. heavy rain this morning, can't even walk out of my house. =-= have to wait for my guardian to send me to the bus stop then wait for the bus... was late for school. reached at 7.40am. Lols. first time so late... but never dio record. xD almost half the class were bare footed and walking here and there... LOL! and before assemble Weng Hoong did something really stupid and funny!

the thing hanging on the fan is weng hoong's scoks. Lols. then after that ICT... then go home. No one to play basketball with. Tsk.

Yesterday was friday, i love it. (: Stayed back for ICT until 2.15. thought the class tee was coming today. tsk. hope monday he is sending it over. Anyway, yesterday stayed back played basketball with jun hui, jin long, ben, cheuk heng and weilin. :D it was fun, i miss it.
But yesterday i recieved something really bad to me.. after i reached home i really felt very sad... I hope it will be fine... If that really happens, i will cry for sure... It's like my third family... Parts of my life... I will do something to try to solve it... Hope it works... :( my third family!!! ♥  Besides this, i'm super angry and upset that one lizard was killed yesterday, in my classroom. Stupid Adi go stepped on it. So cruel. And i heard someone shouted, 'Can you kill it?', don't know is who, so bad... It did nothing harmful right? Killed it for what... If someone killed you for nothing, will you happy? No right? tsk.
yesterday just freaking not in a good mood, totally not.

我不懂為什麼有些人認為跟男生講話就是flirt. 難道女生和男生不可以當好朋友嗎? 是誰定的規矩呀? 你認為跟你的前男友講話就是flirt嗎? 還有, 你們分手之後我根本沒跟他講到什麼話. 如果你真的討厭我或某些人, 就不要裝做你很喜歡我們, 可不可以? 還有,不是每個人都應該按照你的話去做的. 也不是每一個都應該要讓你, 讓你不是理所當然的. 經常讓你並不代表每次都要讓你. 不要以為只有我對你不滿, 事實上你不只得罪了我, 你也無意間得罪了其他人. 只想勸你, 想一想你的態度和看人的眼神, 改改吧. 不要總是把心裡想的脫口而出, 先想後果是什麼可以嗎? 也許你認為沒什麼的事, 對別人來說很傷人. 替別人想想吧. 沒有一個人永遠都是對的.

today is 22th July! (: i'm 15 years-old now, hahaha. the water blash was FUN but cold!! hehehe. love you all, Wei Ling, Michelle, Kai qing, Qi Wei, Rui Qi, Lisa and Eunice! and of course my kor, BRADON CHOO♥ btw, congrats! HONG KONG TRIP ♥♥♥ hehehehe. okay, nights all. (: Luez, happy birthday, for tomorrow. ^^

this few days think a lot (: all thanks to someone. i know what actually i want, what i'm finding, now. feel lots better now, compare to the last few days. got something to tell someone.

Thanks for letting me understand what i actually craving for and finding -someone who really loves me and takes care of me, not like you. Losing you isn't my lost. You're such an asshole, now then i realised. Don't think you can treat me like your toy. I won't let you play for this time. I'm awake now, unlike last time and last few days. You're a stranger to me, now. Do i know you? NO, i don't. (:

today went to st. geroge, a place with lots of memories, meet up with Yu Ren, Cao Wei and Xin Yu. Cao Wei has became more mature but i prefer the cute cao wei. (: well, saw someone today.. still not use to seeing him, wanted to hide on that moment. haizzz. hope will be fine next time. anyway, 5 more days! (: wondering what is the surprise. hehehe. nights everyone. (:

wednesday after school played bball with michelle they all after staying back for class decoration. LOL. someone waited me for 41 minuted... [die] on the way to fcc someone kept disiao me lor.. >-< 'next time cannot trust this people hor. make me wait for 41 minutes. say 3, 3.41 then come' tsk. then someone went to play bball. kick the basketball, for fun, nearly dio head shot. =-= anyway, going out with him quite fun. :P

thanks for remembering what i don't like you to do, though you still do, but 2 times only. (:

craving for the arriving of 22th July, waiting to know what's the surprise. ♥

monday had the last training in holidays, wasn't very tired. (: but the next day is extremely tired! feel like dying, especially the first match against Nan Chiau! >-< number 9!!! well, i admit i'm not hard enough, or tough enough, but i already tried to be tougher for the next 3 matches, the last 1 i really got no more energy to fight on... But i was already tougher then usual eh.. I did try to bend down once too. I am piss, yea, i am. I will try to improve anyway.. Sigh. Nothing good i done that day, right? really sad and piss.. wednesday went to Jed's house celebrate shan's sweet 13's birthday!♥♥♥ It's a surprise yea! hahaha. Bought a cake, hide it at Jed's house. (: cleon, hi-5! that day was fun! and, thank you shuan(: okay, yesterday i watched Brazil played against Portugal, they draw, lols. uhm, watched because, haha, someone loves soccer so i watch, don't know why. xD anyway, school is starting soon, hope everything will be fine. basketball girls♥ jiayou! nationals! <3

a conversation was made with him on thursday, it was...kind of a mixed up of angry and sad? angry because he is not going to do what he suppose to do. sad because of...something. anyway, still thanks that he has been honest to me, at least (: thank you ♥

A leopard cannot change it's spot, i know. so what? Can i blame you? I can't. You are born to be one. It's not your fault. My mind wouldn't change jsut because you're a gangster, i'm just looking for something, though it's not really what i expected.

yesterday went to buy my new basketball shoe. intended to go wisma's nike shop to buy, but on the way to wisma we got into hotel for something then saw a big sell (: got discount! great discount. haha. so i bought it there. :P  by the way, a big thank you to kaiqin (: thanks!
-well, now i feel bloody...sad. i was like...don't know what to do... was irritated... can't you just reply me?!! i was really irritated, angry, sad. everything mixed up.

yesterday went out again, went to parkway for dinner, nice(: today go for a hair cut, no big difference. nothing much yea... tomorrow got training!!! (: will sleep early. (: nights people

yesterday went to orchard, shopping! (: go with my mom, which means, i can buy stuffs. xD i bought a new top at cotton on at wisma. haha. today after training went to to with WeiLin, YanNing, WanTing, Ivy and QiWei. (: after that went to Ivy's house watch ghost story!!! Oh ya, going to buy a new basketball shoe, coz the one my mom bought one is too heavy and big! today wear it for training, wah sio, damn fast tired. So my mom say she buying another one for me (: hahaha. today went to Parkway after resting, walk for the whole day!! okay, byes. (:

hello (: i got my fist basketball shoe! but it's VERY BIG, i'm not use to it. :P monday will wear it to the training (: i got my new bag too, quite nice ^ ^ today went to tm, shopping! Of course with my mun (: i bought a new wallet, and watch. headed home at about 7.30? saw someone whom i haven't seen for almost half year? :P anyway, reached home at 8 bah... using comp now (: haiz... hard to describ my feeling now.. i think i've done a wrong decision. i want to die now! >.< why become like that?! >~< i hate it. i don't want to say already...  

come back from the chalet yesterday night! It was fun going out with senior. But i can't sleep... >-< i don't know why. monday's night we went to watch mid-night movie, haha. [killer] is nice! must watch. then 2 plus we went to bowling, i didn't play.. :P but see them play until very fun. xD center vs forward. lols. play until 3 plus we went back to the chalet, tired! shower then sleep. :P can't sleep... =-= then wake up at about 7 plus. went to eaat breakfast with kaiqin. (: at some tiam. then do nothing at the 2nd day.. lols. majority of us went home on the 2nd day! Oh yea, saw mh at ehub, their class tee look like out school last year's bball tee. haha. at night bbq, eye pain! then 9 plus wait for my guardian to come and fetch me... find them, very tired. walk all the way to the entrance of ehub... >-< then go home sleep until today's 5 plus and wake up. xD

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to UNKNOWN: thanks. but why you say i flirt? with who? or just because i close with boys so that is call flirt?

hws 2009's basketball girls meet
okay, i think the time is out, but only the time. We will meet at 12. The venue was not set yet. We will be eating lunch together, remember to bring your lunch money (: those who can make it will be good. those who can't make it, next time (: By the way, wear your school jersey come, your secondary schoo's. Now let's talk about the date then. you guys want it to be held on saturday or sunday? oh yea, is anyone has a basketball court near your house? or you guys want it to be held at st. George? or the basketball court behind the bk mac? tell me as soon as possible. thanks. (: or you can message me whether you're going. 81656830

today was tired. Have my training end at 10 plus. today train under shade. (: But still, i was tired. Run the basketball court and do the 'crab' movememt, it makes me tired. >-< after that we played full-court match, i was out of strengths! Totally feel like vomiting and fainting... cannot stand straight at that time. I lost quite a number of balls, hate myself today. Sorry for those who are in my team today... the training end ealrier, i guess, because they are collecting the money for chalet's food, hahaha. Sad that coach is not joining us... After that we went to canteen, to rest (:  We talk about some stuffs and discuss about chalet's events. we are going to have mid-night movie! woohoo~ ^ ^ going kbox too. (: awesome. but i won't sing lah. later the windows break then i have to pay lehs. :P not worthy mah. wakakaka. headed home at about 1? Before that i saw Weng Hoong, Iannzhen, Javier, Zheng Xiang and Min En coming in and out from the dental, lols. Saw Aylwin and Charmin too, and Hatim, Li Xin. actually quite a number of them lah. Go home alone :(  was [tired]!!!  after i reached home, my phone rang. LOL. Lue Tao asked me out for [basketball]!!! again. =-=  but i did think of going out, end up really tired and have homework to do so decided to stay at home. Sorry uhs. Anyway, now is using comp because i got do homework ^ ^  heehee. Alright, i shall end here (:  Byes. *next monday is the chalet*!!!

yesterday was the first training after Mid-Year Exam! It was disappointed! It rains, hate it. We never get to train basketball but stamina[=-=]. so tired, my stamina seriously sucks. Anyway, talked about the matches the C girls had played on the zone tournament. They got a good result, by teamwork. (: Play on for nationals, Good luck <3. 
'I think i should let go of you. No, not i think, it's i should. But it can't be done within a short period, i know. Still, i think of you often... The times we spend together, what you said to me in the past and the {surprise}. I still want to know what's it and i'm still looking forward to it no matter what are we now... I just wish that we can still be friend, best friend. This time if you were to ask me whether i just want to be friend, i'll say [YES].'

self reflection on my present personalities...

i changed, in a negative way. I don't like the present me.. I prefer the previous me. (-->as in the 'me' when i was still in Taiwan)  Who can tell me how to change back... Since i come to singapore, i have changed, keep changing. when i was P4 everything was still alright. But come to P5, i', not the original me anymore.. Though i like staying in Singapore as i have basketball here, while my personalities changed...  Can you tell me where should i change? i don't want to be hated. ): 

yesterday went to bk to meet Cleon, Shaun and Jed. i was late for...1 hour plus. LOL. i overslept. when Jed called me i was still sleeping.. I was waken up by his call. :P then after that take mrt to kallang and change bus, reached bk in about 30 minutes leh~ damn fast. (: then we slack at the basketball court behind the mac.. was damn freaking hot yesterday. I don't feel like playing basketball. So we go to mac and slack. Got air-con mah. ^ ^ Cleon saw someone, heard that is CFJK's classmate. lol. then Cleon say change place. =-= after that i bought a ice milo{expensive!} and Jed treat them 2 large coca. here's the photo. (: [down] and we wait for anzi.  then we go food court ate lunch. (: chicken rice{nice} hehe. then we played basktball for awhile, until like 2+ we decided to head off to farrer park. we met shan inside the bk mrt. we went to farrer park but do nothing, everyone is short of money. =-= sad case.. we slack at the arcade for almost... half an hour? then we headed to old hong wen there played basketball. the ring like dropping sia.. damn scary. at about 5? we went to library, at first only shaun and Jed accompanying me but end up shan and cleon came also. i reached home at 7.15. tsk tsk. my head is like bombing on the way home... maybe i'm too tired..

(:

'maybe i really should choose to let go. Keep holding on to it isn't going to change anything but hurt myself deeper. i'm feeling down everytime i think of it. Maybe it is not the right way. i shall try harder to let go.'

this week was super busy. (: *post exam* everyday got activities. tired~ monday went to pasir ris park for class bonding. carry my bad until my shoulder, sunburn that part damn pain. at first not fun at all. the weather is damn hot... cannot tahan. they played captains ball but i never join. after that went to downtown east eat mac. and we went back to school. while waiting for the bus to come, something plays on. LOL. ah hoong say, 'fat rat eat fries'. -3- dots! wth lah~ after got back to school, almost everyone is going swimming lesson. So bored. >< then tuesday whole day stay in school having lesson. *want to sleep* = = wednesday even more worst, carnival. our school's carnival damn boring... cant buy water from the store sia. no freedom de. Not fun. then thursday~ YOG learning journey! played basketball there for awhile. haha. then take class photo. take photo with many peeps. (: here's the pictures. ~~~~~ ah hoong very funny. xD

and yesterday i got back my report book... i get only 17 for class position and 44 for level position. ganna scolded by my mom. tsk tsk... but heard that she bought 1 new pencil case for me. (: it's Domo Kun. <3 looking forward for 10 June!!! my basketball shoe and pencil case and bag!!! wow. ><

'i miss you, a lot. Can you come back? i promise i won't dobt you again. That will be the last time... I really miss you. :('

*Hong Wen basketball'O9 girls meeting*

those who is in the basktball team in 2009,

we shall have a meeting (:

this is suggesst by our captain---yunjie.

she wanted to have a basketball meet and play match together.

please tell me your free time as soon as possible.

If you see this, please help to spread to other members.

REMIND: only 2009's memebers are invited

thanks for spreading. (:

yunjie and me will find a time asap. ^ ^
Erm, it will be held on 12 June as Anzi is going back sss on 14 June. (:
If you cannot, please leave a message, will discuss with the rest.
*if you got a basketball at home, please inform me.
(normal size, don't bring primary school size, ty)

yesterday went for class meet, was awesome. (: reached bk at around 11.15, go mac find joy, mh, shaun and Jedwin. shaun change quite alot, not personality, but voice. haha. after that went to bball court behind mac find cleon, colan and Dodges. they were playing match with some... bendemeer guys. the bendemeer de not really win by skills? watch them play so many times le now then realise. haha.

anyway, after their match ended, we headed to hws. but, the security guard dont allow us to go in. :( so bo bian, must leave and we go Dodges' house slack. playing like mad. hahaha. and chat. talk some private stuff. xD around 2.20 we went to mac meet shan and luez and makan. meet Dennis on the way to mac and passed him his present. ^ ^ i eat mc. chicken~ same as colan. LOL. not purposely one!!! then sit beside him.. -3- he say, 'why copy me?' dots. xD and keep pushing me = = still said something!!! LOL. *confidential*

after everyone had finished their lunch, we went to bball court! of course play bball. (: so long never play le. ahahaha. play match, 4 on 4. lose to colan's team, tsk tsk. :P the Jedwin damn.. violent! >< my hand ganna hit. :( pain pain.. then after that have a break, go toilet pin up my fringe. (: then come back, next match. hehe. group by paper and stone. cleon was missing for quite a while after grouping. LOL. then when he came back, we start the game! ^ ^ It was more fun than the 1st match. hahaha. awesome. i was damn...peicak. Ganna defence by...3 people. = = colan, cleon, jedwin, all come block me. wth!!! i not so strong lah. =3= also not all i score de? lols and then we lose lor... i can't even get the ball~ Gee. But i playing catching with colan, haha. damn funny. anyway, was fun fun fun. <3 miss it.

Oh ya, saw Jun Wei finally, but was dissapointed.He changed, a lot bah.. now he a bit guai lan. tsk tsk.

then went home at about 5, take bus with colan and luez. sms with someone on the way home. (: our conversation was... good. hahaha. cannot say. LOL talk about the old memorise. sms 100+ bah, within few hours.. oops...hohoho.

the feeling is totally different from last time lor! the someone agree too. now was happy together. haha. last time is... so bad until can't elaborate. then aroun 7 reach home uhs? forgot le. or 6.30? dunno. sms sms sms with someone until 12+ and someone fall asleep. xD anyway, i went to sleep at about 1. think so. (: okay, end my post here~ too long le. heehee. i miss you. ):  

finally Mid-year exam is finished!!

today took art paper.. 2 hours! damn long.

finish drawing within 1 hour, needa wait for 1 hour..

damn sian lor. want sleep can't fall asleep. tsk tsk.

sleep half way, heard one sound, something drop on to the floor!

turn to the role beside me, got one ginger was on the floor. haha

It's Bin Wei's ginger! LOL. Weng Hoong and me was laghing like mad.

Anyway, the mid-year exam was... okok.

But history and literature.... DIE. see how is the result. ><

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this few days was in bad mood... uhm.. emo mood*

was... *quarreling with uhum uhum.

haizzz. i miss uhum uhum... :(

'should i trust what i feel or what others said?'

was thinking about it...

what i feel wasn't what others said.

maybe i should follow my feeling?

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exam finish le and then training!

finally! basketball training yea!

but dunno when have leh.

next week they have swimming programme...

so probably don't have training next week lor.

very long never play basketball till super tired le.

tsk tsk tsk! training ah training...

anyways, tomorrow going to meet 6P'O9!

going back hws. (: bleh eh!

Okayz, buaz!  ily <3

this monday have my English paper 1 and 2 done. (:

It was quite ok, not as hard as what i expected. *relaxing*

hahaha. LOL. higher chinese was also done. and it's hard+hard+hard!

By the way, the air-con was damn freaking COLD. i was shivering, ><.

Monday my school's C girls played against Manjusri, we get what we want.

We win by the score of 53:29. (: awesome. get the position of 3rd!!

Jiayou C girls. ^ ^ strive your best!!!

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AND BY THE WAY, yes, i am not in the team, so what?

can't i support them and say we should win?

why can't i? I am just giving my team my trust.

And why can't i say good luck to you while support my team like this?

this isn't call two face people. = =

since you're my friend, i will say good luck to you.

But doesn't mean i wish you to win. I am in BGSS now.

i am in BGSS's team now. i will definetly cheer for BGSS.

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wednesday do pratical exam, the cookie wasn't cooked! LOL

put too much flour. hahaha. so wasted lor.

Oh ya, yesterday finally touched the basketball.

Never play for a week i think. was preparing for MYE. :P

yesterday play with Weng Hoong, Iann and Aylwin.

2 on 2. Weng Hoong and me, Iann and Aylwin. we win. (:

it's fun~ blah ha ha ha!!! hope MYE finish asap..

I want class meeting and outing! with our class tee~

okay, nothing to post about liao. Byes~ bleh.

this tuesday my school played against Bedok North and we win (:

the score is 55:40. Congratz!!! we have successfully get into semi final!!

By the way, i think i met 1 of my hong wen senior from basketball..

But i forgot her name already. she is green house anyway.

And this thursday my played against Dunman Sec, the champion!!!

though we lose by the score of 20:103, at least we manage to get 20 points!

It's not easy. (: and the 1st and 2nd quater the score was quite good yea. 20:6 or 20:8 when we at 2nd round, i think. after that, got sec 1s play le.

Not i am saying they weak, but compare to Michelle and Qiwei they all lah.

plus, someone down there don't know doing what, i shout at her also no use.

she still scold us... = = wth sia.. so suay. nevermind. =3=  will get use to it.

Oh ya, now i put fringe. (: don't know i nicer or uglier.. Not sure.

You all will see it on 6P's outing or meeting. ^ ^ Don't dio shock can already.

AND!!! around 3 more months, my birthday!!! Don't forget it~~

and my mom is gonna buy me a baskteball shoe!!! finally!!! woohoo~~

someone is giving me suprise too... :P cannot say is who. (:

haizzz, before the happiness come, the bad thing arrive first, Mid-year Exam!

Monday is English SA1, both paper 1 and 2, tuesday CL, no need go school.

BUT BUT! Thursday have to stay late at Ngee Ann Sec, HCL SA1, paer Gosh..hope can do well as well..This few weeks i am skipping HCL like siao..

walao eh... my sucking sister. she make me scold bad words, ALWAYS.
her attitude sucks lah! what i do men? damn her lah.
Okay, don't want post liao lah!