Holding on to the past while living in the present.

Hi hi hi. I know i very long never update already, i did not use comp that often so forgive me ya! :D Well, time really flies, coach has left and a new coach will be coming when school reopen. Just hope the new coach won't be too harsh on us. :/ Okayy, this few days as my mum came to s'pore, i shop a lot. Lol. Bought a lot too. Ahahaha (Y)! But those will be my birthday present already. Nevermind~ Hahaha. At least it stops me from using the money for my birthday present on someone.. Someone whom i always think about. Alright, really nothing to update about already! Life is just too boring without you. Lol. So i edit some photo. XD

Back to square one.

hi hi hi. I'm back here. hahaha. Didn't use comp for like one week? X) Playing my new phone uhh, can use wifi. Here i'm to update(: Well, it will be a sad sad sad post again. Because~ I saw him today! After a long time since i last see him in school before holidayyy. He came back for training today, as a graduating senior. He did not change much, the way he talks, the way he walks, the way he plays basketball. Only one thing that changes, the attitude towards me. Wait, hmmmmm, i wonder why am i posting about him again when i said i'm going to move on for the previous posts? Haizzz. Sorry, i just can't...control. Okayy, sorry, i wanna continue... :l For now, i'm scared to see him, because it hurts more after long since i last see him. When i didn't see him for long, i'm doing alright... But everything changes when i see him, like today. When i walked pass him today, i'm shivering and idk why.. Today after training i went to tm, t1 and century square with michelle, lisa and ruiqi to buy materials and gift for coach's farewell party. When i was at t1's sports link, at the corner of basketball shoes, the scence you hug me suddenly replayed in my mind, automatically. It's like i can see the shadow of 'us'... I miss you, zy.s♥ 140411, i think i'm walking backwards on the road...

Once you love me so much, how you want me to accept the fact that you don't love me anymore?

You again.

I can tolerate anyone to call me bitch, except you. But seem like you don't know how much pain it cause when you call me bitch. So please, you don't know anything don't call me bitch. If you called me bitch because of what i did, fine, go ahead. Just don't scold me bitch for liking someone else. You don't understand how i feel. And poor thing, you have not forget me yet, not totally(: When you did, you will have no feeling for me, not at all, not even hatred. That is then called 'let go'. Byee.

FUN.

Today is saturday! Went to play basketball again, but played at bedok north blk 77 instead of 116. A lot of joke today !! Jin Long's unexpected shot, silence some more ! *Is he even intend to shoot? Hahaha, NO.* And Jeremin's 'ah gua' act, water only ! LOL. Joking joking. XD Today is just too...FUNNY ! Too many funny things happened today :l And then ! Our 3 main players- Jeremin, Jun Hui and Jin Long, played a 3-on-3 match with the people there ! Is was a nice match ! *CLAP* But our court was snatched by the people ! D: So we have to change place, went to 116 the 'lao di fang'. Played 4-on-4 all the way, and rest plus some gossip or disiao, i was the first target, wth?! Nvm nvm, they are always like that, BUT, can you please just shut up when someone else are there, GOH JIN LONG? You seriously dam 'chian bian' sia. But actually, i dam paiseh and embarrased that i did those idiot and bitchy things last year.. :x JUST DON'T MENTION ABOUT IT LAH, DON'T WANT TO REMEMBER. Then i went home, at 9, like OHMYGOD. And when i was on 197, i saw a stupid fellow, act cool but not cool, lol. Okayy, nothing else for today le, byeee !

When i was on the bus alone today, i wondered why didn't i think of you like i always do. Not that i've forgotten the fact that you've left, i remember how i felt when and after you decided to leave, and everything i have done to get you back. But i just don't feel sad anymore, not that painful, just a little bit of regret, regret of pushing you away, regret of missing a nice guy. But well, i guess i've already taken my first step, to move on. I dare not say i have moved on, but i'm moving on. And for those who think i'll target someone, get it right, i won't. 

Leaving.

Today is 03062011, it has been 77 days since he left. I waited for 77 days surprisingly... Hahaha, silly ya. I have tried many times to get him back, but i think all of the hope i see is just an imagination. With all the excuses i find for myself not to give up, I was hurt deeper. I just couldn't believe that he can forget so fast, let go so fast, when he once said i'm very important to him and i'll not know how important am i, and that i'm the first girl he cried for. Perhaps they are just all lies. But simply i just can't face the reality, until now. My days are just misearble before someone comes. I miss him everyday, everytime when i walked pass the place he once sit and waited for me, the place where we went together, places where we were once there, together. Everytime when i miss you i'll cry and even break down.. I hate it, it is tiring. I wanted to get rid of it but i couldn't. Now i can, by someone's help. I've not totally let go of you, i will but i won't wash away the memories belong to you and me. Memories should stay(: Okayyy, nothing much already ! Byeee !

Only you know♥  For the last time, listening to this song because of you.

Change

Heyyyy ! :D Have been a long time ago since i last update my blog. No mood :l But i'm okayyy right now and that's why i'm blogging again ! But i have changed the outlook of my blog, to avoid thinking of someone.. Hahaha ! He will never exist in my blog again. Alright alright, i won't continue to emo here. Now is the JUNE HOLIDAY !! But i guess there are no much fun, bored ttm please !! Luckily there are still training to keep me 'alive'. LOL. And hope i can faster get my new phoneee ! Seriously i can't live without a phone .___. Okayy, i really got nothing to say already ! Byeee !