self reflection on my present personalities...

i changed, in a negative way. I don't like the present me.. I prefer the previous me. (-->as in the 'me' when i was still in Taiwan)  Who can tell me how to change back... Since i come to singapore, i have changed, keep changing. when i was P4 everything was still alright. But come to P5, i', not the original me anymore.. Though i like staying in Singapore as i have basketball here, while my personalities changed...  Can you tell me where should i change? i don't want to be hated. ): 

yesterday went to bk to meet Cleon, Shaun and Jed. i was late for...1 hour plus. LOL. i overslept. when Jed called me i was still sleeping.. I was waken up by his call. :P then after that take mrt to kallang and change bus, reached bk in about 30 minutes leh~ damn fast. (: then we slack at the basketball court behind the mac.. was damn freaking hot yesterday. I don't feel like playing basketball. So we go to mac and slack. Got air-con mah. ^ ^ Cleon saw someone, heard that is CFJK's classmate. lol. then Cleon say change place. =-= after that i bought a ice milo{expensive!} and Jed treat them 2 large coca. here's the photo. (: [down] and we wait for anzi.  then we go food court ate lunch. (: chicken rice{nice} hehe. then we played basktball for awhile, until like 2+ we decided to head off to farrer park. we met shan inside the bk mrt. we went to farrer park but do nothing, everyone is short of money. =-= sad case.. we slack at the arcade for almost... half an hour? then we headed to old hong wen there played basketball. the ring like dropping sia.. damn scary. at about 5? we went to library, at first only shaun and Jed accompanying me but end up shan and cleon came also. i reached home at 7.15. tsk tsk. my head is like bombing on the way home... maybe i'm too tired..

(:

'maybe i really should choose to let go. Keep holding on to it isn't going to change anything but hurt myself deeper. i'm feeling down everytime i think of it. Maybe it is not the right way. i shall try harder to let go.'

this week was super busy. (: *post exam* everyday got activities. tired~ monday went to pasir ris park for class bonding. carry my bad until my shoulder, sunburn that part damn pain. at first not fun at all. the weather is damn hot... cannot tahan. they played captains ball but i never join. after that went to downtown east eat mac. and we went back to school. while waiting for the bus to come, something plays on. LOL. ah hoong say, 'fat rat eat fries'. -3- dots! wth lah~ after got back to school, almost everyone is going swimming lesson. So bored. >< then tuesday whole day stay in school having lesson. *want to sleep* = = wednesday even more worst, carnival. our school's carnival damn boring... cant buy water from the store sia. no freedom de. Not fun. then thursday~ YOG learning journey! played basketball there for awhile. haha. then take class photo. take photo with many peeps. (: here's the pictures. ~~~~~ ah hoong very funny. xD

and yesterday i got back my report book... i get only 17 for class position and 44 for level position. ganna scolded by my mom. tsk tsk... but heard that she bought 1 new pencil case for me. (: it's Domo Kun. <3 looking forward for 10 June!!! my basketball shoe and pencil case and bag!!! wow. ><

'i miss you, a lot. Can you come back? i promise i won't dobt you again. That will be the last time... I really miss you. :('

*Hong Wen basketball'O9 girls meeting*

those who is in the basktball team in 2009,

we shall have a meeting (:

this is suggesst by our captain---yunjie.

she wanted to have a basketball meet and play match together.

please tell me your free time as soon as possible.

If you see this, please help to spread to other members.

REMIND: only 2009's memebers are invited

thanks for spreading. (:

yunjie and me will find a time asap. ^ ^
Erm, it will be held on 12 June as Anzi is going back sss on 14 June. (:
If you cannot, please leave a message, will discuss with the rest.
*if you got a basketball at home, please inform me.
(normal size, don't bring primary school size, ty)

yesterday went for class meet, was awesome. (: reached bk at around 11.15, go mac find joy, mh, shaun and Jedwin. shaun change quite alot, not personality, but voice. haha. after that went to bball court behind mac find cleon, colan and Dodges. they were playing match with some... bendemeer guys. the bendemeer de not really win by skills? watch them play so many times le now then realise. haha.

anyway, after their match ended, we headed to hws. but, the security guard dont allow us to go in. :( so bo bian, must leave and we go Dodges' house slack. playing like mad. hahaha. and chat. talk some private stuff. xD around 2.20 we went to mac meet shan and luez and makan. meet Dennis on the way to mac and passed him his present. ^ ^ i eat mc. chicken~ same as colan. LOL. not purposely one!!! then sit beside him.. -3- he say, 'why copy me?' dots. xD and keep pushing me = = still said something!!! LOL. *confidential*

after everyone had finished their lunch, we went to bball court! of course play bball. (: so long never play le. ahahaha. play match, 4 on 4. lose to colan's team, tsk tsk. :P the Jedwin damn.. violent! >< my hand ganna hit. :( pain pain.. then after that have a break, go toilet pin up my fringe. (: then come back, next match. hehe. group by paper and stone. cleon was missing for quite a while after grouping. LOL. then when he came back, we start the game! ^ ^ It was more fun than the 1st match. hahaha. awesome. i was damn...peicak. Ganna defence by...3 people. = = colan, cleon, jedwin, all come block me. wth!!! i not so strong lah. =3= also not all i score de? lols and then we lose lor... i can't even get the ball~ Gee. But i playing catching with colan, haha. damn funny. anyway, was fun fun fun. <3 miss it.

Oh ya, saw Jun Wei finally, but was dissapointed.He changed, a lot bah.. now he a bit guai lan. tsk tsk.

then went home at about 5, take bus with colan and luez. sms with someone on the way home. (: our conversation was... good. hahaha. cannot say. LOL talk about the old memorise. sms 100+ bah, within few hours.. oops...hohoho.

the feeling is totally different from last time lor! the someone agree too. now was happy together. haha. last time is... so bad until can't elaborate. then aroun 7 reach home uhs? forgot le. or 6.30? dunno. sms sms sms with someone until 12+ and someone fall asleep. xD anyway, i went to sleep at about 1. think so. (: okay, end my post here~ too long le. heehee. i miss you. ):  

finally Mid-year exam is finished!!

today took art paper.. 2 hours! damn long.

finish drawing within 1 hour, needa wait for 1 hour..

damn sian lor. want sleep can't fall asleep. tsk tsk.

sleep half way, heard one sound, something drop on to the floor!

turn to the role beside me, got one ginger was on the floor. haha

It's Bin Wei's ginger! LOL. Weng Hoong and me was laghing like mad.

Anyway, the mid-year exam was... okok.

But history and literature.... DIE. see how is the result. ><

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this few days was in bad mood... uhm.. emo mood*

was... *quarreling with uhum uhum.

haizzz. i miss uhum uhum... :(

'should i trust what i feel or what others said?'

was thinking about it...

what i feel wasn't what others said.

maybe i should follow my feeling?

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exam finish le and then training!

finally! basketball training yea!

but dunno when have leh.

next week they have swimming programme...

so probably don't have training next week lor.

very long never play basketball till super tired le.

tsk tsk tsk! training ah training...

anyways, tomorrow going to meet 6P'O9!

going back hws. (: bleh eh!

Okayz, buaz!  ily <3

this monday have my English paper 1 and 2 done. (:

It was quite ok, not as hard as what i expected. *relaxing*

hahaha. LOL. higher chinese was also done. and it's hard+hard+hard!

By the way, the air-con was damn freaking COLD. i was shivering, ><.

Monday my school's C girls played against Manjusri, we get what we want.

We win by the score of 53:29. (: awesome. get the position of 3rd!!

Jiayou C girls. ^ ^ strive your best!!!

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AND BY THE WAY, yes, i am not in the team, so what?

can't i support them and say we should win?

why can't i? I am just giving my team my trust.

And why can't i say good luck to you while support my team like this?

this isn't call two face people. = =

since you're my friend, i will say good luck to you.

But doesn't mean i wish you to win. I am in BGSS now.

i am in BGSS's team now. i will definetly cheer for BGSS.

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wednesday do pratical exam, the cookie wasn't cooked! LOL

put too much flour. hahaha. so wasted lor.

Oh ya, yesterday finally touched the basketball.

Never play for a week i think. was preparing for MYE. :P

yesterday play with Weng Hoong, Iann and Aylwin.

2 on 2. Weng Hoong and me, Iann and Aylwin. we win. (:

it's fun~ blah ha ha ha!!! hope MYE finish asap..

I want class meeting and outing! with our class tee~

okay, nothing to post about liao. Byes~ bleh.

this tuesday my school played against Bedok North and we win (:

the score is 55:40. Congratz!!! we have successfully get into semi final!!

By the way, i think i met 1 of my hong wen senior from basketball..

But i forgot her name already. she is green house anyway.

And this thursday my played against Dunman Sec, the champion!!!

though we lose by the score of 20:103, at least we manage to get 20 points!

It's not easy. (: and the 1st and 2nd quater the score was quite good yea. 20:6 or 20:8 when we at 2nd round, i think. after that, got sec 1s play le.

Not i am saying they weak, but compare to Michelle and Qiwei they all lah.

plus, someone down there don't know doing what, i shout at her also no use.

she still scold us... = = wth sia.. so suay. nevermind. =3=  will get use to it.

Oh ya, now i put fringe. (: don't know i nicer or uglier.. Not sure.

You all will see it on 6P's outing or meeting. ^ ^ Don't dio shock can already.

AND!!! around 3 more months, my birthday!!! Don't forget it~~

and my mom is gonna buy me a baskteball shoe!!! finally!!! woohoo~~

someone is giving me suprise too... :P cannot say is who. (:

haizzz, before the happiness come, the bad thing arrive first, Mid-year Exam!

Monday is English SA1, both paper 1 and 2, tuesday CL, no need go school.

BUT BUT! Thursday have to stay late at Ngee Ann Sec, HCL SA1, paer Gosh..hope can do well as well..This few weeks i am skipping HCL like siao..

walao eh... my sucking sister. she make me scold bad words, ALWAYS.
her attitude sucks lah! what i do men? damn her lah.
Okay, don't want post liao lah!

i am sad and pissed...

we lose to Manjusri by 1 point and they score it at the last second.

they shouldn't be winning.

It was a good match. we lose not because we are lousier.

We lose because we don't know how to control?

we played too scary during the 1st and 2nd match.

Our stamina are not good and so we were tired.

We don't have enough people to sub...

i was down when they score the last ball.

I know i am gonna cry and so Qi Wei and Rui Qi

I don't dare to cry as i know if i do, they do..

My eyes turn red... I was really upset..

But we didn't beat down by them, not yet.

we will continue the journy till the last second.

'BGSS' basketball team will never falls'

If there are a chance to play against Manjusri one more time,

i believe, we will strive our best to achieve the win.

I don't like my friends in BGSS, but i love my teamates in BGSS.

Especially QW, RQ, M, L, YN, WL.

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Mr Loh wanted to change my everything related to basketball

My way of shooting, dribbling, cathing, EVERYTHING.

Looking forward to it. Wish i could become a better player. ^ ^

nothing to say about this week?

Oh ya, have, about the last match, vs TKGS.

We lose but we weren't crying or sad.

Coach put sec 1 down to play.

He say he want to let them try.

Anyway, win or lose is not gonna change anything.

We still get into 2nd round.

We're the winner for this group

Thursday ran 2.4, finally passed, always failed 1.6!

after running 2.4, pretty tired, feel like fainting!

And, was punished by Mr Low, for wearing jersey pant.

Iann, sorry yea... :P we get double punishment...

Mr Low said, 'well done, everyone is in proper PE attire except my bballer'.

we were like oh my god, so embarrasing.. gosh luhhh

Forget it, lols. super super jelly after PE, heng it's mt after that. :D

By the way, yesterday Mr Low went to draw for 2nd round's opponent,

result was extremely good! we get the same group as Bedok North and Manjusri instead of Anglican and Dunman sec. woohoo!!! gonna win. ^ ^

this time round, will meet with ex-teamates. LOL.

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thursday, i heard something from someone, it hurts me.

I cried, when i was walking up the stairs, when i was bathing,

when i was drying my hair, when i was going to sleep...

But today i just know that there was a people lying.

I don't know who to trust, DTZJ or IK? sigh.

who could own up and tell me the truth..?
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I want a basktball shoe!!!

Roar~ We won Chung Cheng High for C division by the score of 32-27!

We'er super high high high over there~ muahahaha.

Next match, play against TKGS, we will trash them. xD

Anyway, we already get into 2nd round, ^ ^

Okay, done with tournament thingy luhs.

Thursday morning, saw someone outside my class, wondering why.

When we are going PE, saw him again... won't you think in a wrong way?

saw her taking out the paper bag and show him, put her hand on his shoulder for quite a long time, aren't you going to misunderstand?

Yet, she say she didnt. Are you sure you didnt or just didnt realise?!

Every single words have a meaning, i think you choose a wrong word.

Is she blaming me for making up story? Good explaination

I am not gonna fight over this if you think it's me making up story.

It's up to you who you want to trust but you know it very well.

I'm pissed. Not totally because of this and not only me.

Sigh. Wish he isn't going to get hurt like how someone had.

If he did, i am not gonna forgive the person.

why is his 1st one so dangerous?

Yesterday went to Boon Keng, my home town, hahaha.

finally see my besties! Cleon and shan~ miss them so much...

they're still the best of the best. =(  why we can't be in the same class still?

<---------- hateeeeeee it.

Oh ya, we decided to make class T-shirt! WooHoo~ 6P'O9 class T-shirt.

It's going to be cool~~~ 6P'O9 Rocks Rocks Rocks!! ♥♥♥

meet at mac, sit there for awhile until i saw....SOMEONE(only shan knows)

then i faster run, go behind de basketball court play.

the weather so damn hot luh!!! play awhile only, friggin sweaty.

then after that take mrt to Marrymount play at the cc near Jedwin's hse.

still got sun! And it's strong! wah sio, hot hot hot.

play match, 4-4. we won. ^ ^ next, match with 3 nuub, they sucks.

Buay song when i play then kept chop.

Then asked, 'can we play 1 match wothout girl?'. Still lose, waste our time. xD

Then pizza was here~~

We went to buy drinks and go to Jedwin's hse to enjoy our pizza!!

It's nice nice nice~ Loving it. :D

After our lunch, we headed back to cc again. Play 3-3 and we lose. hehehe.

Follow by an tired and fun full-court match with stranger. 5-5.

Cleon, Luez, Jared, me and an unknown people 1 group.

Dodges, Shan, Jedwin, Joy and another unknown one another group.

We won! wakakaka. It's awesome. Roar!!! We got sunburn, my hand, pain~~

But i loveeee it. ^ ^  6P'O9 is still that unique. muahahaha.

Looking forward to next bball meeting or outing, as well as our class t-shirt.

I loveeee 6zP'O9 forever. :D It's always united.

*Muscle pain pain pain*

Today, msn with jelly, talking about tournament. ^ ^

His team gone crazy! they won all 3 match. they won henderson(109-8)!!!!!!!

OMG right? xD they suppose to play 4 match but the school don't want.

lmao, they scared of them sio~ OhMyGod. hahahaha.

End of my post.  ^ ^  Bye Bye! =P

thursday

today C division played their 1st match with Dunman high.

we won. *31-30* It's quite cruel for them as they lost by 1 point.

they lost as they miss both of the free-throw in the last sec...

But sad to say, I am a BGSS'er and i am pretty happy not sad.

wakakakaka, i know i am evil, but what to do?? xD

Hope we can get into 2nd round!!! Jia You C division!!!

Basketball Team Rocks!!!! I loveeee it~~

Friday

stayed back and played bball with Daryl and Jiong hong.

By both of them, made friends with Dick and Yong Xuan :D

today was fun. I loveeeee today.

I

whole week of holiday, so fast going to the end le.

Basketball trainings were fun fun fun~  :D

Loveeeee YanNing~~~~ kekekeke

Tuesday C division having match with Dunman High,

saddddddd:(, cannot go.. got higher mother tongue.

But, i am going to skip hmt for this coming thurs and next tues.

Wanna go watch them play against CCHS and TKGS--> YUN!  xP

Yun~ Hope we will trash you!!  kekeke

But got you eh, how?? >~< Nvm we will 'add oil'..

this tuesday after ICT went to boon keng with WanTing

saw XinMei, JELLY, Brandon, Merrick, Keigan~

feel so happy to see them.. miss them alot~ =]

then after that go back to feng shan cc meet Jc they all.

walao!!! play me... get angry sia... >.<''

But now not angry liaoz... LOL

Anyway, wanted to say sorry here...

and please erase that ugly impression of me...

i won't do that again. i know i am at big fault.

Well, thursday training was sort of tired...

But after that still go 116 play with YanNing they all. :D

Jc they all were there too~ alot peeps luh!

BUT, it started to rain at about 2 or 3... stupid fcc, got event.

then bobian, we go 85 market makan. LOL. Jc treat me..

then go behind the 85 market de void deck slack.

till the rain was almost stop, we headed off to Jh's hse there de bball court

Nice to play there~ keep chop if i fall back when i shoot!

Nice seh~~~ i loveeee it. Hope still can do it using school's court.

Okays, let's talk about today.

today do nothing much, cut hair, that's all. xD

CHILL~ cut thiner only, not shorter..

But actually abit shorter, duh? will de. hahaha.

nicer? i don't know? Monday see le then know liao!

Okay, end here... Byes~

Need to chiong homework liaozzzz

havent do... ALLLLLLLL the hw.. goshhhh~  >[]<

trying to do the e-learning

BUT cant go in!

>[]< later need go training sia

shyt luh!! how how how??

OMG~ i am getting crazy..

Never do, get scolded

SHAUN PHUA!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

sports day

It is soooooo bored!

the lousiest sports day i had ever have

damn frigging bored lah!

next year can i pon sports day??

today wake up at 5, meet Jeremin they all at school back gate.

went to the Mac at Bedok Inter~ Many bgss'er. xD

we are late for sports day~ forget it. at least we slack.

By the way, here have some super funny de conversation,

done by Jen Wei, on the bus going to bedok stadium!

JenWei: Hi(poking the person's hand)

the person: (looked at JenWei and said nothing)

JenWei: tell you a secret.

the person:(look at JenWei)

JenWei: we are going to be late

we all like, wth! Laughing none stop sia

after that walked to bedok stadium... left me in topaz

so lonely lo! don't know what to do

sit there emo emo for... 5 hrs uh?

damn bored. boreg to the core. GEEEEEEEEE

I hate sports day okay? >~<

During sports day, someone gave me a heart attack sia

they can't find the runner and the reserve, then ask me go!

i was like, siao!!! heng after that found. =P

After sports day went back home and bath.

Jeremin, JinLong, WanTing and JenWei were here to my hse too

It was fun!! then headed to Temasek for the carnival.

Many BGSS'er leh~ Even Ms Yati was there. xD

about 3.30, we headed off to tampinese mall.

I bought new ear stud. ^ ^

Pink, black and silver. ok ok lah~

 then after that go arcade.

Gab play bball, Wt play dancing. I never play anything.

about 7.20 went home. wait for bus 10 till going crazy.

SOOOOOOOOOOO LONG!!!!

Met with my jie sia. =X so qiao right?? lol...

Okay, my end of the day.

Oh ya, realised that Darius is so tall! O.o

last day of term 1

stayed back for basketball with Gab, Jc, Wt, Jl and Jacky!

today have a better understanding for Jacky

wakakaka. find that he isn't that bad as i thought

^ ^   he quite good lo

know about his relationship thingy..

was shocked.. quite same as what i did in the past..

He isn't a bad boy or playboy

But you will realise only when u see him in a different way

OR

willing to understand him

maybe some people think that he got attitude problem,but he isn't. :D

 Okay, today's basketball ok ok luh

quite tired jiu shi le

MY FEET!! PAIN SIA!!! GOT BLISTER! >.<

alright, ends here. Don't know what else to post.

should be me hearing this song..

習慣就好... 真的必須習慣..

went to fengshan cc yesterday..

something happened.

but i think it is good/bad for both of us?

realised that i am repeating what Jh did.

But just the feeling is different same.

He likes me before,yet i did/didnt like xxxxxxx before.

But thanks for treating me so good this few days...

i am sorry to say that..

break, patch, break, done within one week...

a fast version of mine...

after this thingy, i have understood how Jh feels.

But i still dont understand some part.

I dont like him but how about you?

dont know is your answer because you didn't think.

But i think it is the time for me to really forget you?

sigh.. i feel so guilty to hurt someone..

But really feel stress to be together with a person i dont like.

but not only you are suffering, as well as me..

i think in the past, my definetion for love is totally correct/wrong.

Now then i know how pain is it..

I can't get over him no matter how hard i try..

i thought i could just anyhow find a person to stead,

and i will forget about you and it is what i did in the past..

But it doesn't work this time...

I tried and cried, but nothing change.

I just realised that the more i ask, the more i am going to get hurt..

yesterday i tried again, failed again...

But surprisingly, i did/didn't cry. I know i will fail.

I think it is time for me to try harder...

Hope i can do it as soon as possible...

Okay, let's end this sad post and post something fun.

Yesterday morning, an unknown number called me.

I messaged back and ask who is he,

he say he is Wan Yuan's friend. I shock sia.

then he say his senior played with 2 of them's phone.

And randomly choose a number and called.

Wakakaka, i am so 'lucky' wor?  xD

Just kidding lah. LOL. ^ ^

should i end the post here?

I think so. :D Byes yea.

Long and Ting last long~ :P

having art lesson now..

the animation end le~  :D

Have a missed call by a unknown number this morning,

i replied him and asked who is this.

he is JELLY's friend!  xD

so shock~ LOL.. bet they playing games..

by the way,

yesterday i did something that seriously hurt someone..

and i think, it was the 1st time i hurt someone..

the feeling isn't good at all...

after that,

i wondered if i like him?

the answer is still DONT KNOW

but i tell myself i should try?

so we patch....

i am sorry if you see this post..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY~ CLEON TAY!

give you present next time~ ^^

miss you yea, LAO DI!!!!