yesterday went to pei wan ting celebrate Deion's birthday and have Hong lao shi's farewell. so awkward when i first met all of them... >< at last then slightly got talk to yi fa, Deion, Jasmond and Jacky. Lols. damn paiseh luh! But it's fun. (: then today went out again, he pei me (: hehehe. no much to say. :P don't know what to post. Lols. Oh! monday! sports fiesta! (: Go, 1E1! Okay, i think stop here. Lols. Nights everyone. baby i miss you alot now :( i ♥ you!

post for yesterday:

today went to hmt and get back my class test paper, it was badly done. I thought i will get quite high but well, i did really bad. nearly cried but didn't. feel really upset for it. my moon was totally ruin by the mark. [33/50], i wondered what the hell is this. after that went back to school for basketball training, played until quite scary. Sorry for that... Anyway, after training ended, sit beside boys' basketball court with Eunice and watched the seniors played match. One word to describe, standard. Eunice! (: uhehehe. our secret! ♥

post for today:

today was bored. heavy rain this morning, can't even walk out of my house. =-= have to wait for my guardian to send me to the bus stop then wait for the bus... was late for school. reached at 7.40am. Lols. first time so late... but never dio record. xD almost half the class were bare footed and walking here and there... LOL! and before assemble Weng Hoong did something really stupid and funny!

the thing hanging on the fan is weng hoong's scoks. Lols. then after that ICT... then go home. No one to play basketball with. Tsk.

Yesterday was friday, i love it. (: Stayed back for ICT until 2.15. thought the class tee was coming today. tsk. hope monday he is sending it over. Anyway, yesterday stayed back played basketball with jun hui, jin long, ben, cheuk heng and weilin. :D it was fun, i miss it.
But yesterday i recieved something really bad to me.. after i reached home i really felt very sad... I hope it will be fine... If that really happens, i will cry for sure... It's like my third family... Parts of my life... I will do something to try to solve it... Hope it works... :( my third family!!! ♥  Besides this, i'm super angry and upset that one lizard was killed yesterday, in my classroom. Stupid Adi go stepped on it. So cruel. And i heard someone shouted, 'Can you kill it?', don't know is who, so bad... It did nothing harmful right? Killed it for what... If someone killed you for nothing, will you happy? No right? tsk.
yesterday just freaking not in a good mood, totally not.

我不懂為什麼有些人認為跟男生講話就是flirt. 難道女生和男生不可以當好朋友嗎? 是誰定的規矩呀? 你認為跟你的前男友講話就是flirt嗎? 還有, 你們分手之後我根本沒跟他講到什麼話. 如果你真的討厭我或某些人, 就不要裝做你很喜歡我們, 可不可以? 還有,不是每個人都應該按照你的話去做的. 也不是每一個都應該要讓你, 讓你不是理所當然的. 經常讓你並不代表每次都要讓你. 不要以為只有我對你不滿, 事實上你不只得罪了我, 你也無意間得罪了其他人. 只想勸你, 想一想你的態度和看人的眼神, 改改吧. 不要總是把心裡想的脫口而出, 先想後果是什麼可以嗎? 也許你認為沒什麼的事, 對別人來說很傷人. 替別人想想吧. 沒有一個人永遠都是對的.

today is 22th July! (: i'm 15 years-old now, hahaha. the water blash was FUN but cold!! hehehe. love you all, Wei Ling, Michelle, Kai qing, Qi Wei, Rui Qi, Lisa and Eunice! and of course my kor, BRADON CHOO♥ btw, congrats! HONG KONG TRIP ♥♥♥ hehehehe. okay, nights all. (: Luez, happy birthday, for tomorrow. ^^

this few days think a lot (: all thanks to someone. i know what actually i want, what i'm finding, now. feel lots better now, compare to the last few days. got something to tell someone.

Thanks for letting me understand what i actually craving for and finding -someone who really loves me and takes care of me, not like you. Losing you isn't my lost. You're such an asshole, now then i realised. Don't think you can treat me like your toy. I won't let you play for this time. I'm awake now, unlike last time and last few days. You're a stranger to me, now. Do i know you? NO, i don't. (:

today went to st. geroge, a place with lots of memories, meet up with Yu Ren, Cao Wei and Xin Yu. Cao Wei has became more mature but i prefer the cute cao wei. (: well, saw someone today.. still not use to seeing him, wanted to hide on that moment. haizzz. hope will be fine next time. anyway, 5 more days! (: wondering what is the surprise. hehehe. nights everyone. (:

wednesday after school played bball with michelle they all after staying back for class decoration. LOL. someone waited me for 41 minuted... [die] on the way to fcc someone kept disiao me lor.. >-< 'next time cannot trust this people hor. make me wait for 41 minutes. say 3, 3.41 then come' tsk. then someone went to play bball. kick the basketball, for fun, nearly dio head shot. =-= anyway, going out with him quite fun. :P

thanks for remembering what i don't like you to do, though you still do, but 2 times only. (:

craving for the arriving of 22th July, waiting to know what's the surprise. ♥

monday had the last training in holidays, wasn't very tired. (: but the next day is extremely tired! feel like dying, especially the first match against Nan Chiau! >-< number 9!!! well, i admit i'm not hard enough, or tough enough, but i already tried to be tougher for the next 3 matches, the last 1 i really got no more energy to fight on... But i was already tougher then usual eh.. I did try to bend down once too. I am piss, yea, i am. I will try to improve anyway.. Sigh. Nothing good i done that day, right? really sad and piss.. wednesday went to Jed's house celebrate shan's sweet 13's birthday!♥♥♥ It's a surprise yea! hahaha. Bought a cake, hide it at Jed's house. (: cleon, hi-5! that day was fun! and, thank you shuan(: okay, yesterday i watched Brazil played against Portugal, they draw, lols. uhm, watched because, haha, someone loves soccer so i watch, don't know why. xD anyway, school is starting soon, hope everything will be fine. basketball girls♥ jiayou! nationals! <3

a conversation was made with him on thursday, it was...kind of a mixed up of angry and sad? angry because he is not going to do what he suppose to do. sad because of...something. anyway, still thanks that he has been honest to me, at least (: thank you ♥

A leopard cannot change it's spot, i know. so what? Can i blame you? I can't. You are born to be one. It's not your fault. My mind wouldn't change jsut because you're a gangster, i'm just looking for something, though it's not really what i expected.

yesterday went to buy my new basketball shoe. intended to go wisma's nike shop to buy, but on the way to wisma we got into hotel for something then saw a big sell (: got discount! great discount. haha. so i bought it there. :P  by the way, a big thank you to kaiqin (: thanks!
-well, now i feel bloody...sad. i was like...don't know what to do... was irritated... can't you just reply me?!! i was really irritated, angry, sad. everything mixed up.

yesterday went out again, went to parkway for dinner, nice(: today go for a hair cut, no big difference. nothing much yea... tomorrow got training!!! (: will sleep early. (: nights people

yesterday went to orchard, shopping! (: go with my mom, which means, i can buy stuffs. xD i bought a new top at cotton on at wisma. haha. today after training went to to with WeiLin, YanNing, WanTing, Ivy and QiWei. (: after that went to Ivy's house watch ghost story!!! Oh ya, going to buy a new basketball shoe, coz the one my mom bought one is too heavy and big! today wear it for training, wah sio, damn fast tired. So my mom say she buying another one for me (: hahaha. today went to Parkway after resting, walk for the whole day!! okay, byes. (:

hello (: i got my fist basketball shoe! but it's VERY BIG, i'm not use to it. :P monday will wear it to the training (: i got my new bag too, quite nice ^ ^ today went to tm, shopping! Of course with my mun (: i bought a new wallet, and watch. headed home at about 7.30? saw someone whom i haven't seen for almost half year? :P anyway, reached home at 8 bah... using comp now (: haiz... hard to describ my feeling now.. i think i've done a wrong decision. i want to die now! >.< why become like that?! >~< i hate it. i don't want to say already...  

come back from the chalet yesterday night! It was fun going out with senior. But i can't sleep... >-< i don't know why. monday's night we went to watch mid-night movie, haha. [killer] is nice! must watch. then 2 plus we went to bowling, i didn't play.. :P but see them play until very fun. xD center vs forward. lols. play until 3 plus we went back to the chalet, tired! shower then sleep. :P can't sleep... =-= then wake up at about 7 plus. went to eaat breakfast with kaiqin. (: at some tiam. then do nothing at the 2nd day.. lols. majority of us went home on the 2nd day! Oh yea, saw mh at ehub, their class tee look like out school last year's bball tee. haha. at night bbq, eye pain! then 9 plus wait for my guardian to come and fetch me... find them, very tired. walk all the way to the entrance of ehub... >-< then go home sleep until today's 5 plus and wake up. xD

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to UNKNOWN: thanks. but why you say i flirt? with who? or just because i close with boys so that is call flirt?

hws 2009's basketball girls meet
okay, i think the time is out, but only the time. We will meet at 12. The venue was not set yet. We will be eating lunch together, remember to bring your lunch money (: those who can make it will be good. those who can't make it, next time (: By the way, wear your school jersey come, your secondary schoo's. Now let's talk about the date then. you guys want it to be held on saturday or sunday? oh yea, is anyone has a basketball court near your house? or you guys want it to be held at st. George? or the basketball court behind the bk mac? tell me as soon as possible. thanks. (: or you can message me whether you're going. 81656830

today was tired. Have my training end at 10 plus. today train under shade. (: But still, i was tired. Run the basketball court and do the 'crab' movememt, it makes me tired. >-< after that we played full-court match, i was out of strengths! Totally feel like vomiting and fainting... cannot stand straight at that time. I lost quite a number of balls, hate myself today. Sorry for those who are in my team today... the training end ealrier, i guess, because they are collecting the money for chalet's food, hahaha. Sad that coach is not joining us... After that we went to canteen, to rest (:  We talk about some stuffs and discuss about chalet's events. we are going to have mid-night movie! woohoo~ ^ ^ going kbox too. (: awesome. but i won't sing lah. later the windows break then i have to pay lehs. :P not worthy mah. wakakaka. headed home at about 1? Before that i saw Weng Hoong, Iannzhen, Javier, Zheng Xiang and Min En coming in and out from the dental, lols. Saw Aylwin and Charmin too, and Hatim, Li Xin. actually quite a number of them lah. Go home alone :(  was [tired]!!!  after i reached home, my phone rang. LOL. Lue Tao asked me out for [basketball]!!! again. =-=  but i did think of going out, end up really tired and have homework to do so decided to stay at home. Sorry uhs. Anyway, now is using comp because i got do homework ^ ^  heehee. Alright, i shall end here (:  Byes. *next monday is the chalet*!!!

yesterday was the first training after Mid-Year Exam! It was disappointed! It rains, hate it. We never get to train basketball but stamina[=-=]. so tired, my stamina seriously sucks. Anyway, talked about the matches the C girls had played on the zone tournament. They got a good result, by teamwork. (: Play on for nationals, Good luck <3. 
'I think i should let go of you. No, not i think, it's i should. But it can't be done within a short period, i know. Still, i think of you often... The times we spend together, what you said to me in the past and the {surprise}. I still want to know what's it and i'm still looking forward to it no matter what are we now... I just wish that we can still be friend, best friend. This time if you were to ask me whether i just want to be friend, i'll say [YES].'

self reflection on my present personalities...

i changed, in a negative way. I don't like the present me.. I prefer the previous me. (-->as in the 'me' when i was still in Taiwan)  Who can tell me how to change back... Since i come to singapore, i have changed, keep changing. when i was P4 everything was still alright. But come to P5, i', not the original me anymore.. Though i like staying in Singapore as i have basketball here, while my personalities changed...  Can you tell me where should i change? i don't want to be hated. ): 

yesterday went to bk to meet Cleon, Shaun and Jed. i was late for...1 hour plus. LOL. i overslept. when Jed called me i was still sleeping.. I was waken up by his call. :P then after that take mrt to kallang and change bus, reached bk in about 30 minutes leh~ damn fast. (: then we slack at the basketball court behind the mac.. was damn freaking hot yesterday. I don't feel like playing basketball. So we go to mac and slack. Got air-con mah. ^ ^ Cleon saw someone, heard that is CFJK's classmate. lol. then Cleon say change place. =-= after that i bought a ice milo{expensive!} and Jed treat them 2 large coca. here's the photo. (: [down] and we wait for anzi.  then we go food court ate lunch. (: chicken rice{nice} hehe. then we played basktball for awhile, until like 2+ we decided to head off to farrer park. we met shan inside the bk mrt. we went to farrer park but do nothing, everyone is short of money. =-= sad case.. we slack at the arcade for almost... half an hour? then we headed to old hong wen there played basketball. the ring like dropping sia.. damn scary. at about 5? we went to library, at first only shaun and Jed accompanying me but end up shan and cleon came also. i reached home at 7.15. tsk tsk. my head is like bombing on the way home... maybe i'm too tired..

(:

'maybe i really should choose to let go. Keep holding on to it isn't going to change anything but hurt myself deeper. i'm feeling down everytime i think of it. Maybe it is not the right way. i shall try harder to let go.'

this week was super busy. (: *post exam* everyday got activities. tired~ monday went to pasir ris park for class bonding. carry my bad until my shoulder, sunburn that part damn pain. at first not fun at all. the weather is damn hot... cannot tahan. they played captains ball but i never join. after that went to downtown east eat mac. and we went back to school. while waiting for the bus to come, something plays on. LOL. ah hoong say, 'fat rat eat fries'. -3- dots! wth lah~ after got back to school, almost everyone is going swimming lesson. So bored. >< then tuesday whole day stay in school having lesson. *want to sleep* = = wednesday even more worst, carnival. our school's carnival damn boring... cant buy water from the store sia. no freedom de. Not fun. then thursday~ YOG learning journey! played basketball there for awhile. haha. then take class photo. take photo with many peeps. (: here's the pictures. ~~~~~ ah hoong very funny. xD

and yesterday i got back my report book... i get only 17 for class position and 44 for level position. ganna scolded by my mom. tsk tsk... but heard that she bought 1 new pencil case for me. (: it's Domo Kun. <3 looking forward for 10 June!!! my basketball shoe and pencil case and bag!!! wow. ><

'i miss you, a lot. Can you come back? i promise i won't dobt you again. That will be the last time... I really miss you. :('

*Hong Wen basketball'O9 girls meeting*

those who is in the basktball team in 2009,

we shall have a meeting (:

this is suggesst by our captain---yunjie.

she wanted to have a basketball meet and play match together.

please tell me your free time as soon as possible.

If you see this, please help to spread to other members.

REMIND: only 2009's memebers are invited

thanks for spreading. (:

yunjie and me will find a time asap. ^ ^
Erm, it will be held on 12 June as Anzi is going back sss on 14 June. (:
If you cannot, please leave a message, will discuss with the rest.
*if you got a basketball at home, please inform me.
(normal size, don't bring primary school size, ty)

yesterday went for class meet, was awesome. (: reached bk at around 11.15, go mac find joy, mh, shaun and Jedwin. shaun change quite alot, not personality, but voice. haha. after that went to bball court behind mac find cleon, colan and Dodges. they were playing match with some... bendemeer guys. the bendemeer de not really win by skills? watch them play so many times le now then realise. haha.

anyway, after their match ended, we headed to hws. but, the security guard dont allow us to go in. :( so bo bian, must leave and we go Dodges' house slack. playing like mad. hahaha. and chat. talk some private stuff. xD around 2.20 we went to mac meet shan and luez and makan. meet Dennis on the way to mac and passed him his present. ^ ^ i eat mc. chicken~ same as colan. LOL. not purposely one!!! then sit beside him.. -3- he say, 'why copy me?' dots. xD and keep pushing me = = still said something!!! LOL. *confidential*

after everyone had finished their lunch, we went to bball court! of course play bball. (: so long never play le. ahahaha. play match, 4 on 4. lose to colan's team, tsk tsk. :P the Jedwin damn.. violent! >< my hand ganna hit. :( pain pain.. then after that have a break, go toilet pin up my fringe. (: then come back, next match. hehe. group by paper and stone. cleon was missing for quite a while after grouping. LOL. then when he came back, we start the game! ^ ^ It was more fun than the 1st match. hahaha. awesome. i was damn...peicak. Ganna defence by...3 people. = = colan, cleon, jedwin, all come block me. wth!!! i not so strong lah. =3= also not all i score de? lols and then we lose lor... i can't even get the ball~ Gee. But i playing catching with colan, haha. damn funny. anyway, was fun fun fun. <3 miss it.

Oh ya, saw Jun Wei finally, but was dissapointed.He changed, a lot bah.. now he a bit guai lan. tsk tsk.

then went home at about 5, take bus with colan and luez. sms with someone on the way home. (: our conversation was... good. hahaha. cannot say. LOL talk about the old memorise. sms 100+ bah, within few hours.. oops...hohoho.

the feeling is totally different from last time lor! the someone agree too. now was happy together. haha. last time is... so bad until can't elaborate. then aroun 7 reach home uhs? forgot le. or 6.30? dunno. sms sms sms with someone until 12+ and someone fall asleep. xD anyway, i went to sleep at about 1. think so. (: okay, end my post here~ too long le. heehee. i miss you. ):